This is a short little story which just sort of appeared inside my head yesterday, and it wasn't going to leave me in peace until I let it out. So I wrote it down, and you'll find it below.
It's pretty different from my usual work in a couple of ways, and it kind of just is what it is -- there are no grand plans afoot with this one.
Anyway, if you decide to give it a read, then I hope you will enjoy it. As ever, any thoughts you may have are more than welcome.
The Wind and the Waves
I’ve been in love with the sea for as long as I can remember. Longer, really. I could swim before I could walk. My first recollections are of mornings spent at the edge of the pier, my feet dangling over the end of the wind-beaten, salt-steeped boards as I watched the boats sail out to the horizon, becoming dark silhouettes dividing ocean blue from sunrise red, and of nights spent beneath open windows, listening to the sound of the waves lapping against the shore, feeling the sea breeze against my brow and filling my lungs with warm, salty air as the wind and the waves sang me to sleep.
Even then, they sounded like music.
I loved the sea in all its changeable beauty. I loved it not in spite of its fierce moods, but because of them. Yes, I loved the sun-drenched summer days, when the sand was hot beneath my feet, and the gulls called out as they circled and dove, and I would run down to the shore with the other boys and girls, and we would splash and play in the surf, our heads bobbing like corks across the glassy surface of the green-blue water. But I loved the dark days, too, the gray days when the winds whipped the whitecaps, turning the water more steely gray than blue, and the waves broke upon the rocks like a crash of cymbals, and the spray hung in the air like a deep, briny perfume. I loved the black days when the rains came, and lightning streaked the heavens, and the falling drops mottled the water’s surface like a half-remembered dream. I would rush down to the shore on those days, too, to feel the wind whistle in my ears, to feel the rain beat upon my face, to throw my body into the roiling sea and feel the great, foaming waves crash over my head, as the current fought to carry me away and I fought back, not so much struggling against it as playing with it, teasing it, tempting it, daring it – a tug-of-war between old friends.
The sea was my first and fiercest love. It still is.
* * *
I remember the day I first heard the song. I was still a girl, and it was late in the autumn, near the end of the catch. The days were growing short, and the fishing boats were ranging father and farther from the coast as they tried to scoop up the last schools of silverfins and stripebacks, soon to be boned and filleted, cold-smoked or salt-packed, and sealed into great clay jars for the winter months ahead. I was sitting on the docks with the other girls and boys of that awkward age – too old to be left idle, yet too young to go out with the fleet – helping the old harbor master to heat great iron kettles of thick, black patching pitch.
The winds were gentle, and the sea nearly still, when I started to hear the singing. Just one voice at first, like a high, lilting keen, mournful almost, but with a soft, seductive edge. Soon others joined in, singing the high and low harmonies, until it was like a whole choir inside my head. The winds carried the voices to me, and I felt my whole body attune itself to their song, my very heartbeat playing percussion, my feet tapping on the docks in time with the rhythm, my hips swaying from side to side as the music dipped and soared. Before I knew it I was humming along, adding my own voice to the chorus on the wind.
I remember the harbor master was still stirring the kettle with his pitch-covered paddle as he turned to me. I remember the look in his eyes as he asked me what I was doing.
Singing, I said. Can’t you hear the music?
What music, he asked, the paddle suddenly still in his hands.
The music, I said again, not understanding the question. The voices on the wind.
I remember then that his face went white as sailcloth. The paddle slipped from his fingers, and his rough, knotted hands grasped me by the shoulders.
Where are the voices coming from, he asked, and I could hear the fear in his voice.
I pointed out to sea. They’re coming from the wind, I said. West by nor’west.
Are they loud, he asked.
Loud, I said, and getting louder. Can’t you hear them?
I had never seen the aged master – who seemed to me then to be old as time itself – move as fast as he did that day, racing down the pier to very edge, where he hurried to raise three red flags up the signaling post, and then rang the warning bell so long and so loud that I thought the clapper would break off in his hand. The last of the boats made it back in just as the first dark, looming clouds appeared on the horizon, and the winds began to freshen and swirl.
The elders said that the storm which came that night was the worst in their lives. Black clouds blotted out the stars, and the gales from the west blew so fast and so fierce that they bent trees in half like sticks. The very sea seemed to boil, and the song in my head became a funeral dirge. But it did not frighten me. It thrilled me to my core. It made me feel intensely, emphatically alive, my every sense heightened, my every nerve alight, so that, even as the others huddled together in the center of the longhouse, praying to all the Gods of creation for safe passage, I pressed my face up against a shuttered window and watched through the slats in awestruck silence as the frothing sea lifted boats from their moorings and dashed them against the rocks, and the roaring gusts plucked roofs from houses and carried them away into the ink-black night like scraps of paper on the wind.
The next day, as the men and women of the village set to work repairing the damage, saving what could be saved and salvaging what could not, the harbor master pulled me aside and led me into the battered remains of his hut.
Do you understand what happened to you the day before, he asked me. I shook my head, told him I did not.
He knelt down close to me. He fixed his eyes on mine, and he spoke to me in a tone that I would not fully understand for years to come.
The sea and the sky have a life of their own, he told me. There is magic in them, and it speaks a language all its own to those who know how to listen.
Then he reached up and took down his old, three-stringed baika from a nearby shelf. I had seen him play it before on festival nights, and I wondered if he would play it for me then. But, instead, he held the left and right strings still beneath his stiff, rheumatic fingers, while he plucked the middle one with his other hand.
See how it vibrates, he asked me, as the baika’s low, reedy note hummed in the air around us. See how it speaks?
Then, as that first note faded, he released the two outer strings, before plucking the center one again. This time, I watched as the note spread through the air from the one string to the others, so that all three vibrated together, moving as one.
Just as one string hears another, just as one string moves another, he said, some people can hear the winds speak, can feel the seas swell. Anyone can learn to call upon the magic of the sea and the sky. But to feel its very rhythm, to hear its very voice? Such windspeakers are few and far between.
You have been given a gift, he told me. Do you understand?
I told him that I did. And, at the time, I believed it.
I had my rite of naming that very night, in the center of the storm-shaken village. The elders declared me ready to go to sea, and they named me Gale.
* * *
My marks tell the story of my life at sea. There is the girdled globe on my arm, which I earned for my first circumnavigation, and the four hashes beneath it, for the ones I've made since. There are twin stars on my shoulders, to show I’ve sailed from pole to pole, and there’s an angel on my breast, to show I saved a ship at sea. There’s a rope braided round my thigh, which vouches for my knots, and there’s a wheel upon my neck, which means I’m trusted at the helm. There’s a name above my ankle of a boy I loved in one port, and another name below it of the girl I left him for.
But the most important is on my cheek, where the points of the four winds mark me as a speaker.
A windspeaker is a prized addition to any sailing crew. I can guide my ship along the fastest routes, and steer it clear of storms. I can skirt the doldrums before our sails even slacken, and I can lead us to the nearest port before our stores spoil. So I could have had my pick of ships, I could have jumped from crew to crew as I chased the richest cargos. But I found a captain who I liked with a single-masted cutter that I loved, and I made that ship my home. I grew to know every knot in the wood of her deck, every pucker in the folds of her sails. I knew how she skipped across rough seas, and how she sliced through calm ones. I knew her sounds, and her smells, and her secrets.
I loved that ship like a sister. I loved her for her own charms, and I loved her because she kept me at sea.
I met a few other windspeakers as we plied the spice routes, and I tried to describe to them how the ocean sounded in my ears, how the waves seemed to sing to me, how the sea breeze thrilled my every nerve and filled my heart with song. But they didn’t understand. The winds spoke to them, they said. The winds spoke, and they listened.
But the winds never spoke to me. To me, they always sang.
* * *
I was sleeping when it happened. They must have rowed up aside us in longboats while we lay at anchor, and climbed aboard under cover of night. By the time I awoke to hear screaming on the deck above, and to feel the sharp edge of a blade held against my throat, we had already been taken.
The captain was already dead when rough hands dragged me topside. I saw his body slumped across the tiller, a sword driven so far through his chest that it stuck into the rudder post. I wish I could have been there for him. He was a good captain, and a good man. He deserved better than that.
The raiders lined us up on the foredeck. They tied our hands and feet, then stripped us bare to see our marks. Then a gruff-voiced man, whose face I never saw, went down the line, and, one-by-one, he put my crewmates to the sword. I knelt there, naked and bound, as the men and women I’d sailed with for years – the men and women I’d laughed with, cried with, swore with, and sang with – the men and women who had become more of a family to me than anyone to whom I was related by blood – were adjudged not worth their weight as ballast, cut down from behind, and thrown over the side like so much jetsam. I listened to their death rattles as their throats were cut, and I listened to the splashes as their bodies hit the water.
They came to me last of all. A rough hand grabbed me by the hair, and foul breath filled my nostrils as my head was turned to one side.
This one’s a windspeaker, the rough voice said. She’s worth more than the ship. The rough voice laughed, and others laughed with him.
That was when I started to sing.
I sang the old songs. Songs about death and betrayal, about crashing waves and gusting winds. Songs that chilled the bones of my ancestors on long, stormy nights as they huddled in the galley and tried to put on brave faces amid the terrors of the sea.
I sang out to the wind and the waves, I called out for them, I pledged my life to them if only they would join their music to mine.
I sang out to the voices, and the voices answered back. They sang with me, joined their calls to mine. Our songs became as one, the old song of my people joined into the very sea’s own lament. I felt the power and magic of the wind and the waves come flooding into me, and I felt my grief and my rage flood out into them.
The storm came up from nowhere. One moment the sea was glassy and calm, the next it surged all around us, throwing the cutter around like driftwood. All four winds seemed to blow at once, swirling like a hurricane, shredding the mainsail to ribbons. Waves broke over the railings, and the deck pitched and yawed. The yardarm tore free from the mast and fell to the deck with a cascade of splintered wood.
I watched the raiders die all around me. They were crushed beneath falling timbers. They were swept overboard by great waves which surged over the pitching deck. They were knocked over the railing by the swinging boom. All the while I kept singing the old songs, my voice rising higher and higher and getting angrier and angrier as the storm raged around me, until I could barely hear the wind or the waves above the sound of the sea’s savage music.
I didn’t stop singing until a wave nearly as tall as the mast rolled the cutter beneath me, and I was in the water, my hands and feet still bound with thick ropes, with the ship I loved like a sister above me.
It sank, and I sank with it.
I barely struggled as my lungs filled with saltwater, as darkness enveloped me. I could still hear the song of the storm echoing in my ears as the sea pulled me down.
I have heard it said that drowning is a bad death, but I have never feared it. The sea was my first and fiercest love. Better to die in the arms of a lover than at the point of a sword.
So I gave myself over to the sea’s embrace as the world around me faded to blackness. I closed my eyes, and I waited for the moment when I would feel no more.
* * *
That moment never came. I don’t know why. I should have died there, beneath the wind and the waves. I should have died in the sea that was my home.
But I didn’t. Instead, when I opened my eyes, I was lying on my back, and I felt solid ground beneath me. An alien sun was beating down on me, and the land all around me was like a blasted hellscape of cracked, parched clay and sharp, jagged rocks.
Somehow I managed to drag myself over to one of those volcanic shards that seemed stuck in the ground like giant darts, and I managed to cut myself free by rubbing my bindings up against it. There are days now when I look back and wish that I had not bothered, when I wish that I had simply left myself there to die beneath that oppressive, looming sun.
But I didn’t. I lived.
If, that is, you consider how I live now "living."
I don’t.
I’ve traveled to other planes since I first awoke on that arid nightmare world. I have crossed the eternities trying to get home. I used to care about finding my way back to my own world, but now I don’t even worry about that anymore.
I just want to make it back to the sea. Somewhere, anywhere.
I miss the sea. I miss it more than words can describe. I feel empty without it. My soul feels hollow.
I have spoken to the winds on the planes I’ve crossed. Sometimes they even speak back to me. But they don’t sing. They never sing.
The sea was my first and fiercest love. It still is.
I need to hear its music again. I need to hear it sing.
EDIT: Removed negative self-talk from the preamble, because, boo, negative self-talk.
It's not even a particularly good fit for the M:EM, and so I've been going back and forth over whether or not to share it here. But there are some things about it which I like, so I decided to just go ahead and post.
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I would be very curious about the ways in which you feel this is not a good fit for the M:EM...
I thought this was excellent. As someone who loves most things nautical, the subject matter along was enough to get me hooked, and the flowery speech was evocative and, I felt, effective. I love the way the narrator experienced the magic of the sea and the wind and the overall presentation of her particular outlook.
I also love all the subtle world-building you do here, particularly with the "marks," which I imagine are (or are similar to) tattoos. I thought that whole bit was great. This is definitely a world I would like to see more of, and one I would like to visit, given my own love of the sea. By the way, hopefully you'll take this as a compliment (because I love the song) but I kept thinking of The Wreck of the Edmund Fitzgerald throughout this.
I found it odd that you chose to do dialog without quotation marks. It's an interesting choice. I definitely see where you were coming from with it, since this entire story is a first-person narrative, and it seems you really want to stay in Gale's perspective. I don't think the choice loses you anything, so ultimately I'm not sure what to make of it beyond "interesting."
I was actually surprised she became a planeswalker at the end. I expected her to live (I mean, seriously, who would ever write a first person POV story where the narrator dies... ) but I sort of just expected the "sea" to save her. I really like her search for the sea thing, though. I think it's a nice, clear character hook that is well and deeply ingrained in her personality.
Thanks a ton for posting! This was a really nice read!
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OrcishLibrarian [ Wed Oct 15, 2014 3:11 pm ]
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@ Raven
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I would be very curious about the ways in which you feel this is not a good fit for the M:EM...
Honestly, my fear is/was that people will feel like the magic isn't Magic enough, for lack of a better way of putting it. It makes sense to me that this is just a very specific way to experience and understand mana, and that speaking/singing with the wind and the waves is a kind of musical grimoire, if you will. But it's different enough that I don't want to seem like I'm trying to force a square peg into a round hole.
I thought this was excellent. As someone who loves most things nautical, the subject matter along was enough to get me hooked, and the flowery speech was evocative and, I felt, effective. I love the way the narrator experienced the magic of the sea and the wind and the overall presentation of her particular outlook.
I'm really, really glad you enjoyed the story. While I am sad to say that I have to lunge for the Dramamine anytime I set foot on a sailboat, I grew up reading Horatio Hornblower books, and so I have a similar kind of attraction to nautical daring-do, even if I myself would go green around the gills before I could even cast off. And this is about as flowery as I think I can get before I start to sound like an FTD commercial, so I'm glad that it seemed like it worked as opposed to seeming too overworked.
I also love all the subtle world-building you do here, particularly with the "marks," which I imagine are (or are similar to) tattoos. I thought that whole bit was great. This is definitely a world I would like to see more of, and one I would like to visit, given my own love of the sea. By the way, hopefully you'll take this as a compliment (because I love the song) but I kept thinking of The Wreck of the Edmund Fitzgerald throughout this.
Me, too. I don't know if you'll remember this, but that song kept going through my head way back when you handed out Boiling Seas as a Flavor-of-the-Week prompt, and I've kind of wanted to write a nautical story ever since then. So this was kind of things coming full-circle. I actually toyed with using the line "the wind in the wires made a tattletale sound as a wave broke over the railing," but in the end I just gave a little wink to it instead.
And, yes, the marks are basically tattoos. I just kind of wanted to use a simpler, more functional word for them. They were kind of my hook into this unspecified world, so I'm glad that you liked what little we've seen.
I found it odd that you chose to do dialog without quotation marks. It's an interesting choice. I definitely see where you were coming from with it, since this entire story is a first-person narrative, and it seems you really want to stay in Gale's perspective. I don't think the choice loses you anything, so ultimately I'm not sure what to make of it beyond "interesting."
Yeah, I'm not sure how it shakes out in the end. It sacrifices a little readability for effect, and I'm not sure if I come out ahead or behind. I just wanted to be clear that we're hearing a paraphrased recollection of events, and not direct quotations, and I wanted to keep everything in the narrator's voice. But it gets a little squiffy in places, especially where it means that questions aren't paired with question marks.
I was actually surprised she became a planeswalker at the end. I expected her to live (I mean, seriously, who would ever write a first person POV story where the narrator dies... ) but I sort of just expected the "sea" to save her. I really like her search for the sea thing, though. I think it's a nice, clear character hook that is well and deeply ingrained in her personality.
I was kind of expecting a similar thing at first, but it turned out that the sea was a wild thing that did not give up its dead willingly. And, like you said, it felt like there was something very evocative about her just winding up kind of marooned on land as it were. It's hopefully a little bit of a different twist on the usual idea of a planeswalker wanting to get home. It's not a specific home she's trying to get back to, so much as it is a way of life.
I don't know if we'll ever bump into her again, but I hope she makes it, one way or another.
Thanks a ton for posting! This was a really nice read!
Well, thank you very much for reading, sir! I'm glad you enjoyed it.
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OrcishLibrarian [ Thu Oct 16, 2014 11:08 pm ]
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Just because I love resurrecting old keyword abilities...
Gale, Who Sings With the Seas Planeswalker - Gale
~ enters play with one loyalty counter for each basic island you control.
{+1} Reveal the top card of your library. If it is an island, you may put it into your hand. {-1} Discard an island: Draw a card. {-3} Discard an island: Shuffle target creature into its owner's deck. {-12} You get an emblem which says: "All creatures have Islandhome (this creature cannot attack unless the defending player controls an island; when you control no islands, sacrifice this creature)."
Loyalty: 0
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OrcishLibrarian [ Thu Oct 23, 2014 12:11 pm ]
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I have come around from my initial hesitation about Gale to feeling like she can and should find a home in the M:EM. But I'll just ask the question of the group before moving forward -- does anyone have concerns here?
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RavenoftheBlack [ Thu Oct 23, 2014 6:49 pm ]
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I certainly have no problem with her or this story, although I certainly don't want to get on her bad side while adrift.
Also, I think Raiker Venn needs to start writing a sea shanty...
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RuwinReborn [ Thu Oct 23, 2014 11:58 pm ]
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Raven, you leave this questionably innocent person alone!
I say "questionably innocent" because I don't trust sailors. Anything could happen on the open ocean.
Anything.
In all seriousness, I read this a while ago and TOTALLY forgot to say anything, as I am wont to do. So now I will say a thing! And that thing is this:
This was great! I enjoyed it immensely. First-person POV isn't something we see a lot from you, OL, but I gotta say, you're pretty good at it. Gale is definitely a different sort of blue planeswalker. In fact, Gale reminds me a lot of how I USED to view the color Blue - all about wind and water. Back when I first started playing, all I could think about when playing blue cards was Islands. Refreshing breezes and cool ocean water, that sort of thing. This story reminded me of that, as does this character.
Very interested to see where this lady goes. Thanks for posting!
Also, I think Raiker Venn needs to start writing a sea shanty...
As much as this idea fills me with a special kind of horror, I would be lying if I said it hadn't occurred to me as well. After all, Gale is someone who has something that she wants with a desperate, single-minded determination, and those sorts of people seem like natural muses for Raiker.
There are a lot of ways that encounter could play out, although the one which is kind of fixed in my mind ends with Gale sitting alone in a bathtub full of lukewarm water, holding a toy boat in one hand, and crying the way that only the heartbroken can cry.
Although -- and I don't claim that this would happen, but it seems at least possible to me -- I think that Gale might be one of the few people who could turn Raiker's game back against him. Given that she experiences magic as song, and clearly has some ability to channel an awful lot of power through the act of singing, I for one would be very, very wary of putting a song in her hands. Especially something about death or betrayal, like the Old Songs. We've seen how that can end up.
In all seriousness, I read this a while ago and TOTALLY forgot to say anything, as I am wont to do. So now I will say a thing! And that thing is this:
This was great! I enjoyed it immensely. First-person POV isn't something we see a lot from you, OL, but I gotta say, you're pretty good at it. Gale is definitely a different sort of blue planeswalker. In fact, Gale reminds me a lot of how I USED to view the color Blue - all about wind and water. Back when I first started playing, all I could think about when playing blue cards was Islands. Refreshing breezes and cool ocean water, that sort of thing. This story reminded me of that, as does this character.
Very interested to see where this lady goes. Thanks for posting!
Thank you for reading, Ruwin! I'm really glad you enjoyed the story!
Yeah, I usually tend to avoid first person, because it just isn't the way that characters usually present themselves to me. But Gale's story felt so experiential that I couldn't really imagine anyone other than her telling it. I kind of imagined that she and I were seated across a small table in a dark, musty room, with just a single oil lamp flickering in the darkness between us while a storm raged outside, banging the shutters against the windows and tearing the shingles from the roof as she told me her tale in hushed tones, and I could hear in her voice that it was pure torture for her that the winds howling away outside would not sing to her. So I just tried to take down what she said as faithfully as I could, and this is what I wound up with.
And, like you said, I felt a little better about adding yet another blue 'walker because she didn't fall into the kind of methodical, cerebral portion of the blue pie. Instead, her experience of magic is very much in that elemental, experiential vein you mentioned, and I hope that helps her to feel a little new and different.
I don't really have anything else planned for her at present, but she has lingered around in my mind more than I was expecting, so I hope she'll have some other stories to tell me sooner or later.